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Name: Fairy_PuNK
Gender: Femme
Age: 99
Birthday: 6-6-66
Ethinicity: Fairy
Location: 407
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Titled: Sweet Angel
Created By: X_angawhomps for CB
Programs Used: Adobe Photoshop CS, Adobe ImageReady CS, Microsoft FrontPage 5.0
Credits: Image from Aethereality
Saturday, November 27, 2004
It's been ages since I;ve written. Been so busy with work and the baby.that I hardly have time for anything. Javier is at work right now and I'm trying to do some work since the baby is asleep...trying is the key word. Today my mind and my hand don't seem to be communicating much. I have to do some bars for work that will appear on the webpage and it's like I'm stuck on stupid. I''m blocked. Plus I have a killer headache...which really isn't anything new. That's commonplace for me. I fee like Im in a dry spell right now...There's nothing really that I;m finding interesting. Like I need some creative to do...If I don;t have that I feel blah. Now I realize that's what it is...For so many years I was in such a rut and feeling so lifeless..But it's because I didn;t have anything artistic or creative to do. I imposed upon myself a "artistic exile". I forced myself to stay away from anything remotely artistic. 10 years. 10 years is a long time to force yourself to do something....i can;t really say it was for a full 10 years...After about the first 2 years..It became second nature in a way. I went from seeing the world through the eyes of a artist to see them through the eyes of a spectator. Artists see the world so different. I remember looking at the world around me and seeing it as I would've drawn it., noticing the lines in a figure and how those same lines would look on a canvas. For a long time I saw them as what they were..Just figures, just trees, just leaves not as intricate lines I could draw together and make come alive. Im sure this makes no sense to anyone but myself lol...but that's ok. Even with my job that requires me t be artistic and creative....I'm still scared to let go. Scared to see things as I used to-scared to fully see the world through the eyes of a artist. -sigh-
So u2 did a mini concert in Brooklyn and of course I missed it. I got the invite for it but the invite didn't see who this "world's greatest rock band" would be. Plus it was at 2:30 andI would've still been at work at that time-had I known it was gonna be U2 I would've left early. So next time I guess....gotta wait for the next invite I get. I got a invite to the Kimora Simmons show also....Is it just me or does anyone else think that show sucks ass??? I've had the misfortune of seeing it 3 or 4 times and it's so stupid and boring. So you better believe that invite got thrown in the trash.
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